Glass Heaven

This summer my husband and I took a trip to the Buffalo, NY area for my 40th birthday--and on the way home we stopped at the Corning Glass Museum to be enveloped in the malleable moldable sculptural medium that is glass! Here I am by the Louis Sullivan Window from the turn of the last century, tentatively feeling that 40 was ok!













When I was going to Library School in Urbana, IL, we took a roadtrip to Clinton, IA, to see the Sullivan designed Van Allen department store. I was fascinated with the ornamentation--the lively detailed vegetation that seemed to grow from the building itself. Architecture suddenly became alive for me with its intersection of function and beauty, and the wonder of this relationship, how it shelters both body and spirit. Sullivan was a mentor to Frank Lloyd Wright, and often overshadowed by his famous fame-seeking student, but Sullivan deserves to shine in his own light.

Part of the reason I am attracted to mosaics is their structural aspect--the way mosaic originated on floors or walls integrated with the fabric of the building.


Check out this fabulous photoset on Louis Sullivan by Atelier Tee.

Deep Kitty, oil on canvas by Ivan Chan

Deep Kitty, oil on canvas, 12" x 16" SOLD
Originally uploaded by Ivan Chan Studio

I was introduced to Ivan Chan's work on Indiepublic, and I fell in love with his Kitty Series--cats glowing with the spark of their spirit. I ordered note cards of the series, and they came yesterday!! How delightful!

Shapeshifting Paper

Jeanne Petrosky "Lines"

I spent yesterday at the Long's Park Art & Craft Festival in Lancaster, PA--this is an amazing show! The photo above is
Jeanne Petrosky's handmade paper sculpture "Lines." She works in conjunction with her husband Dennis Guzenski, who is expert in faux effects. Much of the sculpture looks like stone but must feel like a feather.

I felt like I was at a museum rather than a place to buy things, much intense talent to absorb. And over and over I was drawn to the really big pieces. This one by Hetty and Norman Metzger is made entirely of paper, in three dimensional units fitting together like tiles. It took up much of one wall:



I remember reading an article by an interior decorator who said many people have a surplus of "smalls" in their houses, often born of an internal set-point of what costs "too much," and so they accumulate many little things, rather than tolerating the unease of buying larger pieces. It seems irreponsible, or dangerous or ill advised to gather up all those smaller sums and get something spectacular. Not that my smaller sums would add to that much at this point. . .There wasn't much in the middle at this show--either a large footprint or a tiny one like a souvenir of the larger one, and seeming forlorn, separated from the source.

I am grateful for public art, for the presence of murals and mosaics through the Mural Arts program in Philadelphia, for visions that take up entire walls and sides of houses, and engage young people who are on the verge of disconnecting from the potential of beauty in the painful chaos of their lives. There is something within us that sometimes needs expansive expression, a scale out of the ordinary.

Please Touch

Today was the local arts day at Memorial Park, complete with cannons. I walked over in wretched humidity--it was like being with craft on a camping trip from hell. Rows of white tents with hipped rooflines and the occasional artist roughing it a table out in the open. One tent was immediately inviting--configured in an L shape, a cozy shelter, guiding people in. And even more welcoming were the signs that said "Please touch" and "Please touch. That means you. I really mean it." Clay artist Eric Boynton(who I would link to if I could find a link) had lovely glossy glazes on his tiles, rich colors in relief. But I didn't touch, reflexively falling back on years of "Don't touch" practice.

I make mosaics in part because the sensations delight me--the smooth glass, the crisp sound of the nippers cutting through, even the thin film of glue that glazes my fingers after a morning of mosaicing. I love the color, the sparkle. Most of all though, it's the touching, the relationship of my hands to the materials, and their transformation. Sometimes this means I have bandages on several fingers--glass has it's hazards--but I'm oddly able to return to mosaic again and again, in spite of usually feeling faint when having blood drawn. The eye is satisfied as well--but for me a fuller experience because of other senses joining with sight.

I once went with an art major, who at the age of 20, solemnly and vehemently informed me that craft was not art because it was functional. This baffled me. I knew nothing of the philosophical distinctions between art and craft. Function sounded like an obscenity. This summer I went to a museum and my foot touched the line on the floor, and the guard told me to step back. It was like playing hopscotch--when touching the line meant you lost your turn. Art as something to be protected from our oily hands and contaminating bodies. Emily Carr, a Canadian painter who is wonderfully compelling, made many of her works on cheap manilla paper, or mixed oils with house paint and gasoline to make her materials go farther--she wanted to explore and experiment, to paint without fear of running out. I feel torn between the fear that her works will disintegrate, and grateful that she made them as she did, being present in the moment, bringing beauty to paper.

Craft has the ability to acknowledge the body--the visceral response to objects that feel good to the hand, the pleasure of being creatures and alive to sensation.

Home Economics

When I was in the 9th grade, I won the "Adele Swenson Award for Excellence in Home Economics." I'm not sure what form Home Ec comes in these days, if at all--but when I took it, the class was all girls except for the two guys with long hair and khaki jackets with obscenities engraved in black marker, who wanted to be surrounded by girls and extra calories to assuage the inevitable munchies when they got back from smoking pot behind the hockey rink.

I was the girl who had a talent for reading pattern instructions. I would read anything--reading was my drug for the pain of junior high--and this compulsion came in handy in Home Ec. Most of the other girls didn't read the instruction sheet, or didn't understand it, and would ask the teacher what to do next. This puzzled me--asking a question was not something I ever thought about. This is the irony that I became a Reference Librarian, without ever having asked a Librarian a question. I expected myself to know before knowing, to know everything in advance.

In Home Ec, the feeling of power that came from comprehending the instructions and answering other girls' questions inspired me to tell my parents I wanted to become a Home Economics teacher, much to their apparent horror. This was definitely "not to my potential"--yes, one could major in Home Ec at the University, but there was an unspoken belief that cooking and sewing were not truly academic subjects--but women's work.

The confounding factor though for my actually going through with this desire, was that sewing made me cry. All manner of emotional pain couldn't bring the tears, but a crooked seam, or a ratty looking bobbin thread could bring me to sobs of frustration. I loved the big pattern books on the tilted tables. I loved fabric--the texture and colors. When our teacher had us learn different types of weaves, glue scraps of each kind into a notebook, I was in heaven. I loved that weaves had names like herringbone, and that they were identifiable, that I had this knowledge. I loved notions like zippers and buttons and thread. I loved the smell of sewing machine oil and the line drawings on newsprint illustrating each step of construction. But actually guiding the needle tested the limits of my endurance--I wanted it exactly right. And I saw flaws that no one else did, which made me well acquainted with my seam ripper(which in spite of it's association with imperfection, was still a lovely notion).

For years I convinced myself that I actually did like to sew. I bought a sewing machine when I was 29, in a rush of nostalgia. I made ragdolls for my friends children--it was incredible to see these children clinging to the doll I had made, loving the doll, imbuing it with life--but sewing still made me cry. I felt guilty when I started projects and never finished them, as happened more and more. I felt I *should* want to to sew, that the Adele Swenson award must have meant something about my destiny. I still have the plaque--with my name engraved on it, a shield shaped thing with mock woodgrain finish, and a thin brass plate. I wish I knew something about Adele--why there was an award in her honor. And I still wonder why I won--it feels very much like I won for compliance, for following instructions--at the time I was wondering if they had made a mistake, since I spent so much time ripping things apart, surely that meant I was defective in some way.

I went through a bout of wanting to make quilts a few years ago--still circling back to the sewing machine that tormented me so. I finally had the revelation that I did not like sewing--I loved quilts, but to actually make one was not a possibility. Instead my husband decided he wanted to continue his grandmother's legacy and learn to quilt and I most enthusiastically gave him my sewing machine. He picked up the skill with phenomenal speed--his keen spatial abilities allowing him to align many seams with precision. He'd worked in his father's drafting business as a teenager. And I discovered that I still loved quilts--and made them out of paper. I made Christmas cards in a log cabin design with magazine papers in red and green--and it was a delight. And then when I started mosaicing, I felt compelled to make quilt designs in glass--and this was even more delightful! The photo above is of a log cabin design, in red and black glass, 1 foot square, with way too many pieces, but it didn't bring me to tears. I've had people comment on how it must take forever to cut all those little rectangles--and yes it does take a long time--but I love the process. This is what happens when you discover your medium. Not that I don't ever get frustrated, but the joy outweighs it.

The impulse to make something beautiful can be incarnated in many forms. *Women's work* has been a phrase used in contempt in history--and yet what beauty has arisen from it--needlework, sewing, quilting. A quilt is often the only legacy from women in our family histories--their biography in cloth, and I hope to write mine in glass.